Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Ready for 2016

Hey everyone!!!

So I've pretty much taken a year off of responsibilities for the most part... I have also gained about 35 or so pounds. So in an effort to get my body back I have decided that I'm going to start training for another fitness competition this coming May. The only thing that will change that is if I end up getting pregnant. I just got married in November so I'm hoping that a baby will happen but while I'm waiting I am going to focus on my health and getting my body back to where I used to be. If I end up getting pregnant well... then this blog will kinda turn into a fit pregnancy blog.

Well that's it for the update I will post again soon <3

Thursday, April 2, 2015

A Letter to all you "Kinda" Fat Girls

Hey you... yes you... I have something to tell you.

I know you, like really know you.

And I know you because I am you...

I know that your not fit enough to be happy with yourself but not "fat" enough to complain about it.

I know that you bust your ass in the gym but are not seeing any results.

I know that you step on the scale every morning only to see that there hasn't been any progress.

I know that you put yourself down in the mirror when you are standing there naked before getting in the shower, judging every inch of yourself vulnerable to your expectations of yourself.

I know that you do your best to eat whats good for you and try to follow all the rules and take your vitamins.

I also know how difficult it is to be in the halfway point of your success story.

And I know this because I am you... I am going through it with you.

If this is your first time here you may have been thrown off by the fact that this is or was a fitness competition blog. And I want to let you in on a little something... I was a fitness competitor in June of last year and since then I have made a downward spiral of mega weight gain and a lot of bad decisions. 

Since June I have gained about 25 pounds and lost all respect for myself. I decided back in February that enough was enough and I am tired of feeling like shit. 

My entire adult life I have been an off and on fitness enthusiast. I do really great and am really dedicated for a few months at a time only to turn around and take another few months off using the excuse that I'm to busy to accomplish my goals. I honestly don't get why I keep robbing myself of my own happiness. 

Now before you start to think that I might be vain or I'm only focusing on the "kinda" fat girls but honestly if you are reading this it is because you have some interest it changing your life and being comfortable with who you are and I don't care what size or shape you are in. 

I wanted to write this letter to you today because last night while I was standing there in all my naked glory in front of my mirror prior to taking my shower I noticed that I was attacking my image. My gut sticks out to far, I look gross, my boobs are not perky, my ass has dimples in it... pick...pick...pick.

Then I recalled how when I was in Zumba earlier I was watching myself in the mirror at the studio and was also inflicting the same self sabotage. I kept telling myself God you look fat and begin to pick apart myself. 

The hard thing is, is that I feel like I cannot talk to anyone about it. I tell a friend and hear your not even fat, I talk to a coworker about my desire to lose weight and I get told that I shouldn't even worry about it and I look fine, I get that they are trying to be sweet and/or that I don't fit into what they consider fat but I don't feel that way and sometimes it would be nice just to have someone ask me why I feel that way or say Hey... I know what you mean. 

What is especially hard is that I have been dedicated since February and not seeing any results... I know they will come eventually and I just have to keep what I am doing but it really sucks to be doing great things for yourself but still have image issues. 

I'm constantly looking at those sexy ladies you see on instragram and comparing myself to them. I hear my brain mutter I MUST LOOK LIKE THIS. And it is beyond unfair to do that. 

I was in tears last night while I showered mulling over all of these feelings and was kind of disgusted for how mean I am to myself. I mean can you even imagine how hurt someone would feel if you said out loud to them the things you say to yourself? 

So ladies... enough is enough. No more self shame, No more picking yourself to pieces in the mirror, If you don't have anything nice to say to yourself then don't say (or think) it at all. 

So... with that being said... I have a 30 day challenge for you... are you ready?

This challenge is designed to bring out the beauty and the best in you, to help you achieve your goals what ever they may be, and get your life back on track and to love and accept yourself for who you are. 

I will be doing this with you at the same time so please join me as I will need all the support I can get. In return you will get my support and hopefully the support of others. So here is your first challenge:

Challenge #1:
  • Get yourself a notebook/journal
  • Write your name and your favorite inspirational quote on the first page
  • Subscribe to by blog so you can get the daily challenges via email
  • Comment below saying "I'm in!" 
See you lovelies tomorrow with Challenge #2!


Monday, January 5, 2015

Meal Plan and Work Outs this week 1/5/15 to 1/11/15

Hey loves :)

How was your first week? I hope it all went well for you... to be honest, I had to many days off and really didn't stay on schedule. But life happens... If you fall off your horse then just get back on.

So I have some exciting news :) :) You know how I was saying that I am getting married this year... well me and the Mr. have decided to forgo a wedding and elope instead... in Jamaica!!! So... with that being said I need to get my ass in shape and fast because the trip is in November!

So for this week meal plans look like this, now keep in mind that this is the second week that we are getting back on track so little by little I will be switching out the meals to eventually be a full on competition prep diet:

Mon, Wed, Fri:

1 Cup of Green Tea
1/2 cup of Oats
1/2 cup of Fruit
2 Scrambled Egg whites

2 Cups Romaine Lettuce
4 oz of Chicken
Salad Fixings
1 tablespoon dressing

You can still eat what you want just remember portion control and keep it healthy.

fruit, veggies, nuts, granola, yogurt...etc keep it simple and healthy

Tues, Thurs, Sat:

1 Cup of Green Tea
2 Egg whites, 1 whole egg
3 Turkey sausage links
1 tortilla

2 slices whole wheat bread
2 slices turkey breast
purple onion
light mayo and mustard

You can still eat what you want just remember portion control and keep it healthy.

fruit, veggies, nuts, granola, yogurt...etc keep it simple and healthy


1 Cup of green tea
1 Cup greek yogurt
1/2 cup fresh fruit
1/4 cup granola
1 tablespoon flax seed

4oz Chicken
Romaine Lettuce
Salad Fixings
2 tablespoons of dressing

You can still eat what you want just remember portion control and keep it healthy.

fruit, veggies, nuts, granola, yogurt...etc keep it simple and healthy

Work outs for this week will be on my Face Book I am doing a 12 day work out challenge. So follow me over there <3 Lets get sexy :)


Sunday, December 28, 2014

Meal Plan for This Week 12/29/14 - 1/4/15

Good Morning Fancy Folks :) 

Just wanted to pop in and let you all know that I have plans to get back on track. My coach asked me if I was planning on competing in the 2015 season and I told him I would think about it... as of now the answer is a no but is also a strong maybe.

If I decide not to compete it will only be because I am getting married in August and I am not sure I will have the time to compete or the money to do it either. Maybe if I could get some sponsors that would pay for everything.... but as of now no decisions are being made other than shifting my focus back to my health.

Since I am just starting back out on getting back on track, this weeks meal plan is pretty doable and I would recommend it to anyone who is just starting out or like me, needs to hop back in the saddle. Its not super restrictive and pretty basic and still allows for the good stuff but the health focus will be during the daytime meals and dinner is left open to eating what you want with portion control.

This meal plan will get you used to eating on a schedule and will set you up for the weeks to come. Each week I will be putting out a new meal plan with tweaks to the schedule as well as a work out plan for that week. 

**Please note that I am not a nutritionist or a personal trainer. This is what works for ME and might not work for you.**

I would like to see who will be doing this with me... because we are in it together. So when you get a minute jump over to my facebook page and like it w/ notifications and let me know what you thought of this weeks work out schedule and meal plan :) 

Below will be the grocery list for the week, my list of dinners with links to the recipes, then at the bottom will be the scheduled work outs for each day. I hope you enjoy! 

Dinners this week:
-Spanich, Artichoke and Chicken Lasagna w/ French Bread and Salad (Portion this 4oz of lasagna, 1 slice of french bread, huge portion of salad with one serving of low calorie/fat dressing) Find the recipe here.
-Parmesan Crusted Tilapia with Tomato Basil Cream Sauce w/ Basmati Rice and Salad (Portion this 4oz of the Tilapia, 1/2 cup of rice, huge portion of salad with one serving of low calorie/fat dressing) Find the recipe here.
-Ground Turkey Tacos with Beans and Rice (Portion this 4oz of turkey, top with lettuce, tomato, avocado... tortilla optional, small portions of beans and rice) No Recipe for this one :)
- Pot Roast w/ French Bread and Veggies (Portion this 4oz of Roast, 1 slice french bread, 1 serving of the veggies that cooked with the roast) Find the recipe here.
-Herb Roasted Whole Chicken w/ Veggies and Salad (Portion this 4oz of chicken, huge salad, side of veggies) Find the recipe here.

All these dinners are healthy and as long as you watch your portion control you will be good :)

Monday, Wednesday, Friday:

Breakfast: Egg White Oats

You will need:
1/2 cup of oats
2 egg whites
1/2 cup of Greek Yogurt (you can use any kind or flavor)
1/2 cup of fruit (fresh or frozen)

  1. Measure out 1/2 cup of oats in your bowl and cover with 1 cup of water. Sprinkle some cinnamon and stevia or fruit and mix it all around. Then, add your egg whites. Mix it again until everything looks to be one consistency.
  2. Cover in the microwave for 1 minute. Take it out, stir it, and cook again for another minute. Mix it all up one more time and pop in the microwave for 30 second intervals again and again until your oat bowl contains the factor of fluffiness that you prefer. ... Seriously, they're almost puffy ... 
  3. Serve with the Greek Yogurt on top.
  4. Search on Pinterest or Google for Egg White Oats. There are a million recipes online so choose one that you like the most :)

Lunch: Taco Salad

You will need (for the salad):
4oz of Ground Turkey seasoned with Ms. Dash Chipotle 
2 handfuls of greens (any type of lettuce)
Tomatoes, Cilantro, 1/2 Avocado, Purple Onion

You will need (for the dressing):
3/4 cup low fat mayo
1 cup of fat free or 2% milk
2 tbl of taco seasoning
Fresh chopped chives

Directions (for the salad):
  1. Cook enough ground turkey for the week on Sunday, you can store 3 individual 4 oz servings for the week.  
  2. Chop your tomatoes, cilantro, avocado and onion and toss it in the greens
  3. Make your dressing (do this on Sunday) by putting all the ingredients into a jar and shaking the hell out of it. Store it in your fridge at least 1 hour before serving.
  4. You can make enough salads for 3 days or you can make these the night before.

Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday:

Breakfast: Green Monster Smoothie 
Find the recipe here... this thing is delicious! 

Lunch: Chicken Salad

You will need: 
4 oz of chicken breasts cut into strips or cubes (cook this on Sunday)
2 handfuls- Lettuce of your choice
Your favorite fixings... I like tomatoes, cucumber, and peppers
1 serving of low cal/fat dressing

Mix it all up and eat it :)


Breakfast: Healthy Breakfast Burrito 

You will need: 
2 egg whites 1 whole egg
3 turkey sausage links cooked and cut into pieces
1/4 cup or abouts of chopped peppers (I use sweet peppers but you can use bell too) 
1 tortilla (I love the spinach or tomato basil ones)

  1. Cook the sausage and slice into pieces
  2. Remove sausage from pan and spray with non stick spray
  3. Cook peppers in pan till soft, add eggs and scramble
  4. Add the sausage and heat through
  5. Put it in a tortilla and serve with salsa or hot sauce 
Lunch: Tuna Salad Sandwich

Directions: Make your tuna how you like it :) Serve on 2 pieces of whole wheat bread.

Snack ideas: Make sure that you are eating snacks between meals to keep your metabolism going throughout the day. I like to eat at least every 2-3 hours so make a schedule and put alarms in your phone to go off when you need to eat so you don't forget. Here are some ideas for snacks:

*Apple with PB   *Carrots with Hummus   *Shrimp with Cocktail Sauce   *Handful of Almonds
*Hard boiled egg with 1/2 avocado   *Fruit and Nut mix   *I have more snack ideas on previous meal plans here.

**** Shopping List (does not include dinners)****
  • Old fashion oats
  • Eggs
  • Greek Yogurt
  • Fruit (fresh or frozen)
  • Bananas
  • Peanut butter
  • Sugar free almond milk
  • Spinach 
  • Turkey sausage links or pattys
  • Peppers (sweet or bell)
  • Tortillas
  • Ground Turkey 
  • Tomatoes
  • Cilantro
  • Avocados (2)
  • Low fat Mayo
  • Taco Seasoning
  • Green onions/chives
  • Purple onion
  • Tuna
  • Cucumbers 
  • Chicken breasts
Alright now that you have your meal plan and grocery list here is what I am doing in the gym this week. For now I am only putting the muscle groups that I will be working on because right now in the very beginning you have to work at your own pace, lift the weights that you are comfortable with and do what you are comfortable doing. I have hurt myself before trying to follow the exact weight and exercise on many blogs and I wont do that to you. If you need ideas of what to do just search pinterest for muscle group exercises. So for now I will be very basic.

Week 1 work outs:

Monday: 45 minutes of light cardio
Tuesday: 30 minutes of weight lifting for Arms and Shoulders, 10 minutes Abs, 20 mins of light cardio
Wednesday: 45 minutes of light cardio
Thursday: 30 minutes of weight lifting Chest and Back, 10 minutes Abs, 20 mins of light  cardio
Friday: 30 minutes of weight lifting Legs and Butt, 10 minutes Abs, 20 mins of light cardio
Saturday: Active rest... try going for a walk, doing yoga, cleaning the house... etc.
Sunday: Optional active rest or do absolutely nothing :)

So there you have it... this weeks plan to get moving. Lets make 2015 our bitch :) 


Wednesday, December 17, 2014

The Who, What, Why and Where I have been

Hey everyone!!!

So dont you remember a long while back when I had first started on my fitness adventure and I told you all (and I quote):

" Like a lot of things in my life I always half start things then never finish. 
Sadly my fitness life is very much like my blogging habits."

Well aint that the friggin truth! Well let me rewind back to 18 days out (my last blog post) and catch you up with all the new happenings... This will probably be a long one but of course it's worth it :) 

So my last post was 10 things no one told me about Competition Prep... but for what happened after the competition is a story in itself... I will get to that juiciness later. 

So... lets start things off on a positive note :)   

So coming up to my competition I got to endure the mighty hell that is peak week. I was a little disappointed in my coach (reminder for those to make sure you get a good one). It's not that he was a bad coach but he had so many people on his team that I feel like I kind of got lost in the dust and had many many unanswered questions come show time. 

Coming up to the competition I still had way more body fat than I should have had. I looked and felt better than I ever have in my life but half guidance mixed with not really knowing when and what to eat left me stuck eating egg whites and spinach for pretty much every meal and dehydrating myself in the process which was no fun because I believe that it was done wrong. Usually during training you up your water intake to about a gallon a day then water load and do a steady dehydration during peak weak. This was not what was done in my case and I am pretty sure that I would have had my body a little better than what I brought on stage. 

Fast forward to the Eve of my show... I got my spray tan on (sticky sticky nasty stuff) and then couldnt shower... talk about torture! Then got my bags packed... check out this list! 

I was traveling out of town so I could not miss a single thing... honestly didnt use half of the stuff that was packed but if I needed it I had it. Oh and the Pee Cup (I see your curiosity getting to you) was so that I could pee through the cup without getting any splashes on my spray tan... I didnt want to be "that" girl lol 

Fast forward to Competition day!! And holy Shit I made it! Loaded everything in the car and was on our way to Sacramento California! 
We Made It!!!! (Me and my Support Sista aka... BFF)

After check in and $300 later I was ready to take my drug test and wait till it was my turn to go on stage! 

Shitty thing is that I was the first girl to go out... and at the last minute they told us no routines because there were to many of us (so my advice to you is to have a short routine and a long one just in case). So with all that mixed together in a happy little surprise... I got really stinkin nervous and rushed through my poses and froze up on stage :(  I literately forgot everything that I had been working on for MONTHS in 5 minutes!!  It was those first time blues.... but I will know better for next time right?? But to make you and I both feel better... even though I totally bombed prejudging I totally rocked my night show :) to bad they don't score you for that! Oh and I went ahead and did my full routine anyway because hey... why the hell not. Here are some photos from my show :) 
Back Stage Getting Ready to Go on!!
Pumping up outside... and calling my peeps :)
Holy Shit Balls!!! Ha ha... so nervous!!

So as you can see... I am a little more curvier than the other girls and I took 9th out of 11 girls but you wanna know what?? I am stoked! Because:

After the show was over we took a photo with our teams :)

This was such an amazing experience... and after it was all said and done I treated myself to a Strawberry/Chocolate shake, In-and-Out Burger and Fries animal style and ate every last bite... then almost died cause I felt like a giant ton of poop. 

Fast forward to now... to December 17th 2014 almost an entire year since the start of my fitness journey... and I wish I had better news.

After my competition was over I got a severe case of post competition blues... I was lost... I didn't know what to do or how to eat and no longer had that motivation to go to the gym. At this point I was not sure if I ever wanted to compete again... it was hard hard work and a total 100% dedication that occupied my every thought and was not sure if I wanted to do it again. 

I started by taking a week off from the gym to enjoy some down time... a week turned into 6 months. I have been back every now and again but have had seriously no motivation. I hate to say it but I am back to where I started... I have even gained back every pound I lost. I am heavy and uncomfortable and am back to being self conscious and not happy with the way I look.

It's total bullshit that I gave up on myself. I was disciplined and dedicated and had been doing it long enough that it was now a habit and I gave it all away. Why do I do this to myself... I do it often and it would have to be the single most awful thing about myself. I essentially rob myself of my own happiness by being lazy and having zero determination.  

Now before you tell me "Kaila... dont be so hard on yourself" understand one thing about me...

I am a quitter. Plain and Simple. I know it, my mom knows it, my fiance knows it... 

... and I am putting it to an end! Right here Right now! 

2015 will be the year for me and my success! And I am going to kill it!


Tuesday, May 20, 2014

10 Things No One Told Me About Competition Prep!

Oh my Gosh I am 18 Days Out!!!!!

What have I learned throughout this process....

1. Get ready for your pee to change as often as your mood. And when you are happily munching on your asparagus your pee is getting ready to treat you with an unhappy surprise! Just going to warn those who pee in the shower that you might gas yourself with the horrid smell of asparagus pee... not to mention it might be sightly green. Taking your vitamins will also have a color effect... neon yellow but thank God it doesn't smell. 

2. Your protein farts are enough to even gross you out... Don't really need to say much here but if you fart in the car and your 6 year old says out of no where it smells like a rotten egg... quickly blame your fart on her before shame sets in... she will most likely defend her dignity in which case you will need to take the blame... but ya... don't do it at work either ha ha.  

3. You know that happy little voice inside your head that you hear when you are reading or need someone to talk to... ya... you guys are friends until competition prep... then that voice turns into the devil and says some pretty uninspiring things to you. During prep you and your subconscious are NOT friends any more. It will tell you that you can't do it, that you wont be ready in time, that you look fat, that one bite wont kill you... hey what about one more bite of that cake it wont count...not cool. To get over the messed up messages your new NOT friend will tell you is to tell yourself (out loud) that you can do it, you will be ready and no thank you I will not eat that cake.

4. You might cry a little, you might cry a lot. I know I did. I have had a few moments of utter break down... thanks to my not so nice subconscious... I have struggled with my image my entire life... I've learned a lot about my self and what I can handle. When I couldn't figure out posing when I thought I would be a natural... I bawled my eyes out, When my amazing best friend gave me $100 to put toward my competition I called her and bawled my eyes out, When the diet got tough and I reached that make it or break it point.... I bawled my eyes out, When I was so tired but still needed to wake up and do cardio... I bawled my eyes out... but I dry those puppies... suck it up and get back to work! <- that is what is important.

5. Forget the life you had... you now have a new one. One that is basically work, workout, eat, sleep every day. I now see why everyone said your social life goes bye bye once you start prep. My social life was a majority of social drinking events... which I can no longer partake. I do show up when I can and I still leave my house to go somewhere besides the gym every now and again but I am looking forward to the freedom after prep. 

6. Your friends at work (and in general) will start to ask you for fitness advice. They see what you are doing and that it's working. This is the perfect opportunity to motivate, motivate, motivate!!! My number one goal throughout this whole prep was to make sure that I was motivating others to become fit, wither they want to compete or just get in shape... always share the fitness! Some will take what you say with a grain of salt... in fact most people who ask me what I am doing will zone out after I tell them all the work I put in... but there is a chance that one person, maybe two will get pumped and make a lifestyle change!

7. Prepare to make some gym friends :-) I would officially call myself a gym rat... all the trainers, employees and fellow gym rats at my gym now know me by face and name. The coolest part about this is you get to see people transform and make new friends! I have made several new connections at my gym just by being there every day! I love it :)

8. You will experience what being Hangry is all about... refer back to #4 because sometimes you are hungry, stressed, frustrated, happy, hungry, hungry... all the time! I love love love love food! Even though I'm not actually hungry for food... I get Hangry for some Sushi or cake or anything smothered in delicious! 

9. If you plan on traveling... prepare to plan like you do for a wedding. Everything needs to be in order! All your food, your sports bra, gym shoes, SOCKS!! (always forgetting my socks) everything needs to be planned out... you will get crazy looks but being prepared is the #1 key to success!

10. All you will think, breath, and talk about will be contest prep. People naturally talk about themselves and their lives... but when competition prep consumes everything you do what is there to talk about... uh my dog threw up on the carpet last night.... or I got a new Personal Record at the gym last night!! I'm sure you will come up with some other exciting topics but this will probably be the majority :)


11. Contest prep will have it's ups and it will have it's downs... but the one thing you have to keep in mind is your WHY. When you want to give up or give in remember why you started in the first place. This has kept me going from the beginning. What you are going through is not easy... but continue to challenge yourself everyday you will be so glad you did. Not a single con of competition prep would or has made me regret my decision to compete. I am healthier that I have ever been in my life, I have beautiful toned muscles, and I have a whole new outlook on life and have goals that will take me far! 

What are some of the things no one told you about contest prep? I would love to hear your thoughts! Were your's the same as mine? 

I wish you the best of luck with your contest prep!!

xoxo Kaila 

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

4 Weeks Out!!! Pictures, Updates, Division Change, Upcoming Show Dates!!!

Hi there everyone!!!!

So I haven't updated in a long while... busy is an understatement! Now I see how in the beginning when I was doing all my obsessive research that sacrificial damage to the social life would happen... I...Totally...Get...It!

I feel like if I am not busy doing something then I am doing something wrong... I have even started carrying around a tiny note book that way anytime I think of something I can write it down... at least somewhere I can have everything in one place.

I am officially 4 weeks out! And if you may have noticed in my post title... I have made a division change!

I am so excited to announce that I will NOT be competing with the NPC... I have switched to the INBA!!!!

Reasons for Switching:

  1. INBA is a completely natural competition. I will be required to take a drug test. I love that there is an even playing field.
  2. INBA has AMAZING prizes for the pros that win! They are giving away a Car at the Olympia this year! 
  3. INBA fits my goals for competing and it also supports my future goals in the competition world. 
  4. I have a coach who is an INBA judge and 2012 INBA Coach of the year, 2012 Trainers Recognition award and the voice of the INBA and is currently being followed by documentary crew for a category called mini body building for kids fitness. Its going to be featured on stateside and in the UK. It will feature extraordinary youth athletes who are choosing a healthier lifestyle rather then playing video games and eating junk food. I am so excited that my daughter will be following in my footsteps and will be competing right along side me :) <-these kids are so adorable btw :)
  5. I will have the opportunity to compete to get on Team USA and compete on an international level against 40+ countries and 1000's of athletes!
I will be competing in the following shows:
The Zeus Classic June 7th in Sacramento, CA
California Naturals August 9th in Petaluma, CA
Night of the Natural Champions September 13 in San Francisco, CA
My Daughter will be competing in this with me. 
Natural Championships September 20 in Reno, NV
Team USA!!!!!!!!!!!!! September 27 2014!!! Las Vegas Nevada!!!!!!

So as you can see... I have a ton of practice before I go for Team USA... but how crazy cool would that be!

I have been practicing my posing every single day and I love love love my routine! It's so me and very saucy!  All I really have left to work on in the posing department is the flexing and the squeezing of everything and arching your back... it's hard stuff!

I have also been taking a ton of vitamins every day. I take fish oil, women's vitamin pack, biotin and a fat burner. 

My diet is super basic... it's nice because I know what I am having every day. I basically have egg whites and oatmeal for breakfast and chicken, turkey or fish and tons of veggies for the rest of my meals. Post workout I am eating more egg whites and grilled veggies. 

I feel like a gym rat now to... people are starting to recognize me ha ha! Oh and I have started doing Zumba! Funnest thing in my life! I like want to get certified to teach it on the weekends or something! I love it!

I sold my blue suit... it was way to big on me :( but I have a super sexy silver one but I am going to keep what it looks like a secret until you see my stage photos! I know... :) but I want it to be a surprise!

If you are interested in finding out more about my coach Bryan Eidem you can click on his name or you can check out his Facebook Page.

I hope all your competition prep is going lovely!!! 

xoxo Kaila